im inlove or not??

what happen to me look im inlove or not?? i dont know what happen into my heart i know that she’s my friend but look like im fall inlove at her but i have a girlfriend now. im not expecting that i inlove at her well because she so care at me?? or  just my heart exsist a feeling to her? i dont know what is it into my feelings now.. but i dont want to broke our relationship as friends and i know that she never love me because she had an boyfriend now…. how sad isn’t? why just love came into our life without reason. well im happy when i see her if even she not know bout my fellings to her

Always for the first time

Always for the first time

Always for the first time
Hardly do I know you by sight
You return at some hour of the night to a house at an angle to my window
A wholly imaginary house
It is there that from one second to the next
In the inviolate darkness
I anticipate once more the fascinating rift occuring
The one and only rift
In the facade and in my heart
The closer I come to you
In reality
The more the key sings at the door of the unknown room
Where you appear alone before me
At first you coalesce entierly with the brightness
The elusive angle of a curtain
It's a field of jasmine I gazed upon at dawn on a road in the vicinity of Grasse
With the diagonal slant of its girls picking
Behind them the dark falling wing of the plants stripped bare
Before them a T-square of dazzling light
The curtain invisibly raised
In a frenzy all the flowers swarm back in
It is you at grips with that too long hour never dim enough until sleep
You as though you could be
The same except that I shall perhaps never meet you
You pretend not to know I am watching you
Marvelously I am no longer sure you know
You idleness brings tears to my eyes
A swarm of interpretations surrounds each of your gestures
It's a honeydew hunt
There are rocking chairs on a deck there are branches that may well scratch you in the forest
There are in a shop window in the rue Notre-Dame-de-Lorette
Two lovely crossed legs caught in long stockings
Flaring out in the center of a great white clover
There is a silken ladder rolled out over the ivy
There is
By my leaning over the precipice
Of your presence and your absense in hopeless fusion
My finding the secret
Of loving you
Always for the first time

First Duty in My On Job Training(OJT)

its my fist time on job..  in a company…!! its so hard and exciting coz you have an extra experience in a job with out paying.. im enjoy coz i have lots to know in a kind of a job Im so ignorant of this kind of job….:) its so tired but im still enjoying working.. hehehehe!! and i love to!! how bout you?? lets face the reality of our life… is the time were in field of job/working day in day in a kind of an job. lets go and enjoy your FIRST DUTY IN YOUR ON JOB TRAINING (O.J.T)

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"what a fuckin lyf"

what been probz at me…?? my life is so stupid!! my father hate me now.. my mother hate me to… and my grades have been all down… huhuhuhu is that my problem?? im a black sheep anymore i hate my life.. look like mY self cant change…!! im always a baDboy no one cant understand me… dam shit fuck….!! im a punk im a loner no one cant help me… what a brat thing i do now?… ill kill my self in a bliding or a sucking my heart??…thos thing is im doing to help my life comportable… smoking drunking bar hopping and walking out in street and getting join in a bands is not happy for me its been suck!!… love?? is not part at me…. look like im so far in this world!! my world is full of darkness that no one people around me and so silent…!! now i know my life is surround of pains and breakdown saddness im crying im lying god help me to change my self im know that god was give a cool forgiveness to me…. help help help help…… T_T

"Pains and Love"

LOve is like a pains.. know why? because u love someone but she hurt you!…. your heart was broken because of her… why you love? why theirs someone hurt because of love? its unfair!!… no reason to make you happy or you just want playing something? its that right?… you lie for nothing wait for something but in the end you become hurt!.. why ther reason we love? its because we know that we can find a real love in means not just for seek!…..and we know that pains is part of love and love part of pains in our heart…. and the love and pains is part of our life!!.. :)

"Thats loves"

its not easy to state a reason wen u fall of love… sum might think its just an excuse!! sum might not actually believe!! sum will blame you! sum might even be mad at you! what they dont see the fact thats…. it hurts you even more..!! to hurt sum one who doesnt deserve to be hurt especially when you can't actually state d reason why u've fallen out of love…… "(

….KISS……..

kiss is sign of love

when i meet her!!

when i first meet her im so shy… coz e've been know her! but suddenly im inlove with her… but one thing is so sad to me… im not for her she not comportable at me…!! and in the end im the man who's falling down like an airplane crash in the air….!! my heart was broken my life is ruine..  into her…!! what is this life? its full of painz!!